Sunday is a funny day ... in a way the whole world looks forward to this almost universal holiday.... but there are times when you feel a bit lost cos you just dunno what to do with your sunday .... somehow i like to have a packed sunday unless ofcourse the week has been hectic and I just wanna chill...... The day still somehow goes by but sunday evenings are like very very tough and I just cant figure out why! For one, there is something very depressing about them..... maybe it has something to do with the past, and the fact that next day would be school, college or 9-5 work day......
I also sometimes feel there is something very lonely about a sunday evening (which has nothing to do with being single cos ideally that would be applicable 24/7 then, lol). Its quite a puzzle actually cos its been years and I still havent been able to get to the bottom of this ....... The feeling remains the same... some sundays are bad, some are worse but the same feeling prevails with varying intensity.....
There are times when towards the end of a sunday in my head im like 'wow the day is actually getting over' or like 'wow its monday tomorrow' ..... lol... hearing the latter is almost like a nightmare for others but given the way i feel about sundays its quite a happy feeling for me....
This evening somehow hasnt been so bad given that i made sure i went for a brisk walk and after coming back, though im home alone im actually enjoying 'cricket'...... and that says a lot since Im not a cricket buff and its funny how Im actually having a good time watching the game and even clapping when India takes wickets, lol...... its like anything to not feel the sunday evening blues :)
Hopefully someday i will figure this out or atleast get over the sunday blues ....... Till then i guess I will just have to do something innovative, different every sunday or maybe just try to befriend my sundays and make them happy :)
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
Valentine Day!
Once again 14th feb is around the corner.....How do u feel about it when ur single? ... well.... different feelings at different times... this time ill health has already brought on a low feeling so i think it just adds to it ... the radio, t.v. and papers just have ads about V day! On other days ur so ok and comfortable about ur 'single' status but somehow on these days its almost like rubbing it in..... The whole 'couply' thing just gets to u! U wanna feel happy for all the couples out there, u really do but what happens around u with the 'in ur face' ads and promotions etc just make it very difficult!
U ask ur married friends what their plans are and the newly married ones have big plans and are all happy and enthusiastic about it and the ones married for years are not all that excited but still have plans :) I guess somewhere there is a kind of expectation and pressure as well that if u have someone u cant not be doing anything on V day! But it takes all kinds ...... there are those who even if they have someone dont think its a big deal... they feel its just a gimmick...... and then there are deep and profound statements to back it up like u dont need a V day to celebrate ur togetherness and its such a farce etc..... which is probably also true but at the end of the day like everything else, here too its 'to each his own'......
Its funny how visavis ur single status , though ur alone , on most days ur not lonely but somehow these days just make u feel lonely especially if u are the emotional, romantic kinda person, lol! V day ,Christmas and New years somehow just top the list in bringing on such feelings!
U try to console urself in every possible way that u need not get affected by all the humdrum around this day.... u tell urself, next year u will def have someone to go out with on this day and then u realise uv said that for the last many years and nothing has changed :) and then u also try the 'whats the big deal, its just another day'....... there are many such thoughts running thru ur brain but at the end of the day the reality still remains that another year has gone by and u still have no one to go out with on this day and many other such days .....
The one option that is always there and open is the fact that u can celebrate the day with all ur single girlfriends, like u have done in the past...... and thats quite delightful.... and then last but not the least there is family too...... so though thats not what V day is supposed to be all about or rather projected to be , but in the end its about 'love', and the important thing is that u spend the day with people u love dearly....... :)
U ask ur married friends what their plans are and the newly married ones have big plans and are all happy and enthusiastic about it and the ones married for years are not all that excited but still have plans :) I guess somewhere there is a kind of expectation and pressure as well that if u have someone u cant not be doing anything on V day! But it takes all kinds ...... there are those who even if they have someone dont think its a big deal... they feel its just a gimmick...... and then there are deep and profound statements to back it up like u dont need a V day to celebrate ur togetherness and its such a farce etc..... which is probably also true but at the end of the day like everything else, here too its 'to each his own'......
Its funny how visavis ur single status , though ur alone , on most days ur not lonely but somehow these days just make u feel lonely especially if u are the emotional, romantic kinda person, lol! V day ,Christmas and New years somehow just top the list in bringing on such feelings!
U try to console urself in every possible way that u need not get affected by all the humdrum around this day.... u tell urself, next year u will def have someone to go out with on this day and then u realise uv said that for the last many years and nothing has changed :) and then u also try the 'whats the big deal, its just another day'....... there are many such thoughts running thru ur brain but at the end of the day the reality still remains that another year has gone by and u still have no one to go out with on this day and many other such days .....
The one option that is always there and open is the fact that u can celebrate the day with all ur single girlfriends, like u have done in the past...... and thats quite delightful.... and then last but not the least there is family too...... so though thats not what V day is supposed to be all about or rather projected to be , but in the end its about 'love', and the important thing is that u spend the day with people u love dearly....... :)
When you are SICK!
Its strange that when you are sick , ur supposed to get enuff rest and sleep etc.... I tried all of it and guess what... im soooo bored ...... the body sure needs the rest but the mind is all over the place and not at ease at all.... and its funny how it dsnt njoi anythin much at this time.... dont feel like reading or seeing films, the most boring progs happen to be on t.v. the most annoyin songs on radio ...... im sure its more about ur frame of mind rather than whats actually happening around u, where nothin just seems fun or njoyable....... or rather ur easily bored and disinterested with most things ...... Tried and tested believe me.... :)
Just last weeek my dad was unwell and i remember trying to cheer him up and tell him, 'dad, its ok, dont sulk pls.. its not the end of the world', and today my mum says the same thing to me.. and im like ' ma im not sulking , i just dont feel like doing anything' ... but i guess u dont realise till u go thru it urself and someone else can see it better .... so surely what goes around does come around and sooner than later , lol!
Its a strange mood and state to be in..... but i do believe in the fact that like it or not u do need to rest it out..... thats the only thing that works even better than medicine.... and like they say in the case of a cold " take meds and u get cured in 7 days and dont take meds and get cured in a week ;) "
The only thing i am enjoyin in this state is hot hot food and liquids , esp my ginger tea which soothes my aching throat like nothin else ..... just feel like having more and more cups of it whole day thru..... and its funny how u get specific cravings as well.. like today iv chewed my mom's brain sayin i want 'mtr ka upma' ,lol! She was like, make it urself as u make it well and i was like ... nah, i dont wanna make anything.. i just want 'mtr ka upma'.... she then just gave me a strange look , and said... 'ok il get it fr u ' :) thats a mother for u and i wont be surprised at all if she brings it soon and i hope my craving lasts till then ! :)
So all that happens when ur sick or rather when i am sick, lol! I cant speak on behalf of everyone .....maybe all of us go thru different stuff! But all u want is to get it ver with soon and get back to ur normal routine life :)
Just last weeek my dad was unwell and i remember trying to cheer him up and tell him, 'dad, its ok, dont sulk pls.. its not the end of the world', and today my mum says the same thing to me.. and im like ' ma im not sulking , i just dont feel like doing anything' ... but i guess u dont realise till u go thru it urself and someone else can see it better .... so surely what goes around does come around and sooner than later , lol!
Its a strange mood and state to be in..... but i do believe in the fact that like it or not u do need to rest it out..... thats the only thing that works even better than medicine.... and like they say in the case of a cold " take meds and u get cured in 7 days and dont take meds and get cured in a week ;) "
The only thing i am enjoyin in this state is hot hot food and liquids , esp my ginger tea which soothes my aching throat like nothin else ..... just feel like having more and more cups of it whole day thru..... and its funny how u get specific cravings as well.. like today iv chewed my mom's brain sayin i want 'mtr ka upma' ,lol! She was like, make it urself as u make it well and i was like ... nah, i dont wanna make anything.. i just want 'mtr ka upma'.... she then just gave me a strange look , and said... 'ok il get it fr u ' :) thats a mother for u and i wont be surprised at all if she brings it soon and i hope my craving lasts till then ! :)
So all that happens when ur sick or rather when i am sick, lol! I cant speak on behalf of everyone .....maybe all of us go thru different stuff! But all u want is to get it ver with soon and get back to ur normal routine life :)
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
HUM DONO!
I sometimes have this desire to write about films that i see ..... I wanted to create a separate blog for that.... but given my pace I may as well do it here, as and when and then create one specifically for films once i decide to do it diligently!
So i watched HUM DONO (Rangeen) as they have chosen to call it though i think it sounds hideous! A yesteryear hit with the likes of Dev Anand, Sadhana and Nanda.... I cant deny the fact that the movie is lovely .... The simplicity and charm that it exudes have been lost in the hindi cinema we see these days....Dev Anand was great in the double role but i think he was far more charming as the moustache wala major.... brilliant acting! Sadhana was v endearing and Nanda was drama personified but i guess her role demanded more of that ..... The drama element was a bit too high , more reminiscent of those times visavis the films.....esp scenes that were suppposed to be melodramatic , to me looked more hilarious...... i guess it would seem so to anyone who belongs to our generation ......Over the top acting in the tragic scenes mainly by the female characters!
For a change it was heartening to see Lalita Pawar in a positive role which she did complete justice to.... The music is evergreen..... literally music to anyone's ears .... esp songs like 'abhi na jaao chhod kar' and 'main zindagi ka saath nibhaata chala gaya '...my absolute favourite with some profound and uplifting lyrics .........
And a really sweet moment i witnessed was when i saw this old couple, seated in my row , probably in their late sixties or early seventies, totally engrossed in the movie, and perhaps reliving their younger days. The lady was humming along when the songs were on and mind you, not getting a word of any of the lyrics, wrong! :)
To me though i cant really explain it in a logical way ..... but i'd go with the B/W version anyday..... personally i dont really think colour really added to the whole film.........Cos the film wasnt about beautiful locations or costumes but about human emotions and relations .....and also maybe somewhere the b/w scenes and songs were already deeply ingrained in my memory ..... the old world charm etc ...... so i would still njoi that very much but i guess to each his own!
I came back smiling as somewwhere though some may feel the end was very bollywood or filmi or unrealistic given today's times but i related to it totally cos thats the way i see relationships , profound and deep rather than surface and fake!
The pace of the film was slow and i realised how, given the lives we lead we are not used to being so patient even when it comes to good story telling ...... and somehow the second half kept me more engrossed as compared to the first half which again is rare when it comes to movies these days ......
To sum it up a good soulful film :)
So i watched HUM DONO (Rangeen) as they have chosen to call it though i think it sounds hideous! A yesteryear hit with the likes of Dev Anand, Sadhana and Nanda.... I cant deny the fact that the movie is lovely .... The simplicity and charm that it exudes have been lost in the hindi cinema we see these days....Dev Anand was great in the double role but i think he was far more charming as the moustache wala major.... brilliant acting! Sadhana was v endearing and Nanda was drama personified but i guess her role demanded more of that ..... The drama element was a bit too high , more reminiscent of those times visavis the films.....esp scenes that were suppposed to be melodramatic , to me looked more hilarious...... i guess it would seem so to anyone who belongs to our generation ......Over the top acting in the tragic scenes mainly by the female characters!
For a change it was heartening to see Lalita Pawar in a positive role which she did complete justice to.... The music is evergreen..... literally music to anyone's ears .... esp songs like 'abhi na jaao chhod kar' and 'main zindagi ka saath nibhaata chala gaya '...my absolute favourite with some profound and uplifting lyrics .........
And a really sweet moment i witnessed was when i saw this old couple, seated in my row , probably in their late sixties or early seventies, totally engrossed in the movie, and perhaps reliving their younger days. The lady was humming along when the songs were on and mind you, not getting a word of any of the lyrics, wrong! :)
To me though i cant really explain it in a logical way ..... but i'd go with the B/W version anyday..... personally i dont really think colour really added to the whole film.........Cos the film wasnt about beautiful locations or costumes but about human emotions and relations .....and also maybe somewhere the b/w scenes and songs were already deeply ingrained in my memory ..... the old world charm etc ...... so i would still njoi that very much but i guess to each his own!
I came back smiling as somewwhere though some may feel the end was very bollywood or filmi or unrealistic given today's times but i related to it totally cos thats the way i see relationships , profound and deep rather than surface and fake!
The pace of the film was slow and i realised how, given the lives we lead we are not used to being so patient even when it comes to good story telling ...... and somehow the second half kept me more engrossed as compared to the first half which again is rare when it comes to movies these days ......
To sum it up a good soulful film :)
Friday, February 4, 2011
Friends!
This one goes out to all the beautiful people in my life ..... MY FRIENDS..... my life line , my support system and much much more..... They have always been my angels without wings .... My chosen family!
Friends are the only ones who will always show u the mirror and say it as it is without sugar coating it! And though that can be hard to digest sometimes , thats the best part of friendship.... no pretenses, no facade, nothing......
When something good and positive happens they are always there to share and participate in your joy, but most of all when something unpleasant happens , they are just there like rocks , and your pillars of strength! They never let u fall and keep egging you on! And the most touching moment is the fact that when u narrate your woes, sadnesss, hurt to them and they have tears in their eyes cos they feel your pain and thats when you know how much they love you...... When someone has wronged you and they swear and wanna kill them and either wish them away from your life or motivate and hound you to throw them out of your life...... Cos they want you to know how worthy you are and how you deserve nothing less than THE BEST!
I am blessed to have such friends in my life...... You all mean the world to me and i could not have come out of my worst patches without your love and support and neither could i have enjoyed my best moments if i would not have been able to share them with you.......
If there is one aspect of life that i dont hold against the man up there is the fact that he has blessed me with some wonderful pals...... And the most beautiful part of this has been that every one of these special people have just walked into my life one day and become an integral part of it ...... The universe did this beautifully at its own pace and time ......
So cheers to you all and a big heartfelt thank you for being part of my life .... There is a lot that i would not have been able to do without you :)
Love you always and forever ........
Friends are the only ones who will always show u the mirror and say it as it is without sugar coating it! And though that can be hard to digest sometimes , thats the best part of friendship.... no pretenses, no facade, nothing......
When something good and positive happens they are always there to share and participate in your joy, but most of all when something unpleasant happens , they are just there like rocks , and your pillars of strength! They never let u fall and keep egging you on! And the most touching moment is the fact that when u narrate your woes, sadnesss, hurt to them and they have tears in their eyes cos they feel your pain and thats when you know how much they love you...... When someone has wronged you and they swear and wanna kill them and either wish them away from your life or motivate and hound you to throw them out of your life...... Cos they want you to know how worthy you are and how you deserve nothing less than THE BEST!
I am blessed to have such friends in my life...... You all mean the world to me and i could not have come out of my worst patches without your love and support and neither could i have enjoyed my best moments if i would not have been able to share them with you.......
If there is one aspect of life that i dont hold against the man up there is the fact that he has blessed me with some wonderful pals...... And the most beautiful part of this has been that every one of these special people have just walked into my life one day and become an integral part of it ...... The universe did this beautifully at its own pace and time ......
So cheers to you all and a big heartfelt thank you for being part of my life .... There is a lot that i would not have been able to do without you :)
Love you always and forever ........
High Time!
My last post was Sept 2007.... more than 3 years... have just been procrastinating and promising myself that i will write......
Though i do not really believe in new year resolutions but somewhere at the back of my mind this one was looming large.. so compared to a 3 year delay ... a one month delay somehow seems to make me feel not so bad!
For a change im not gonna have any plan or structure to this .... just a free flow and lets see where it takes me..... the journey seems exciting now and the destination does'nt matter.........
One of my promises to myself, I managed to fulfill last year .... that of trying my hand at some form of art ...... which i did and which has been very gratifying..... It took me a really long time to get down to doing that...... better late than ever and i enjoy every bit of it! And thats what i hope to achieve here as well.......
A special mention here, of my dear dear pal Parul who is an avid blogger herself and loves to do creative stuff and is excellent at all of it cos it truly comes from her heart.... She has been a huge inspiration for me and has always told me to 'not think' and just 'write' or 'do it'....... So Paruuuullll..... this one's for u and i will try to follow your sound advice and just do it :) Love u!
So gud luc to me and happy writing :)
See u soon !
Though i do not really believe in new year resolutions but somewhere at the back of my mind this one was looming large.. so compared to a 3 year delay ... a one month delay somehow seems to make me feel not so bad!
For a change im not gonna have any plan or structure to this .... just a free flow and lets see where it takes me..... the journey seems exciting now and the destination does'nt matter.........
One of my promises to myself, I managed to fulfill last year .... that of trying my hand at some form of art ...... which i did and which has been very gratifying..... It took me a really long time to get down to doing that...... better late than ever and i enjoy every bit of it! And thats what i hope to achieve here as well.......
A special mention here, of my dear dear pal Parul who is an avid blogger herself and loves to do creative stuff and is excellent at all of it cos it truly comes from her heart.... She has been a huge inspiration for me and has always told me to 'not think' and just 'write' or 'do it'....... So Paruuuullll..... this one's for u and i will try to follow your sound advice and just do it :) Love u!
So gud luc to me and happy writing :)
See u soon !
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